Today has already been so insane I’ve had to look in the mirror at least twice and convince myself to hold it together! The economy is taking it’s toll on us, and my weight loss and work out journey has started to take over my life… I knew that this would be the case, because its such a big undertaking, but the thing that I had hoped for was that I would be more organized and poised to handle it.
Jobs… well you know the product demonstrator deal… that was squashed. Remember the elder care gig… well ya one of my clients is no longer needing my care and the other is only 1 day a week… hardly enough to save for the NYC Marathon let a lone pay a bill! I feel this week like I’m going to suffocate. Speaking of being air deprived… let me fill you in on the Bolder Boulder!!
The morning of the race I did everything right… I ate my salad at 3 am so that it’d have plenty of time for digestion, I drank tons of water and I got all my gear together so that I could take a bus out to Boulder. The only thing I had to focus on was getting my mind prepared to run 6 miles or 10 Kilometers. I was on the track and ready by 7am! My wave didn’t go out till 8:23am so I had plenty of time to think… and that was the problem!! I was there for at least an hour thinking about how insane this is, and how I’m going to go from here and eventually run 26.2 miles… and how the hell did I ever imagine that I would ever be able to do it!??
I was looking for a spot to puke when I noticed a mother and daughter team next to me… the little girl smiled at me and I hit this wall of positivity! Her name was Caitlin and she was 10. She was pretty much the spitting image of myself at that age and I was in awe of her confidence… she wasn’t nervous, she was excited. I later learned that she is on her school’s running team and at her peak has run up to 9 miles!! This kid was amazing. Caitlin and I decided to start the run together and after that moment I felt like this day was going to be one to remember. I was glad that I had taken my mind off all the pressure of the event and just enjoyed the experience. I’ve learned that that is the most important thing in any adventure I take on… it’s not about winning or losing or the best time or the skinniest or even the fattest… it’s a about the people you met, the memories you made… the lives that changed that day because of the experiences others had… that’s what LIFE is. CLICK HERE FOR PICS FROM THE RACE (I’m in the Super cute black BornFit Gear)
Today while trying to watch the “Never Ending Story” with my children I had so many things going on in my head I wasn’t fully paying attention, and my kids noticed! Finally something their constant questions broke my train of thought, I was frustrated and mad at first and told them to please be quiet and watch the movie… they did and I started back to thinking… the all of a sudden I stopped… and looked over and I saw their excitement as Falcore the luck dragon came on the screen, and I started thinking about how excited I was when I first watched the movie back in 1984. (aka 1 million years ago! ha) I was overcome with emotion as I realized how special a moment this was… MY kids are watching the movie that gave me my amazing ability to never give up on my dreams… and now my babies are watching it and interpreting that message in their own little imaginations… How will this movie mold their outcomes? Will it effect them at all? I sat them in my lap and held them close, as we shared their first viewing of The Never Ending Story together. It was an experience I wouldn’t ever want to miss… chores and bills, worrying and even running can wait, those are the real never ending stories! lol
The message I’m trying to communicate is, enjoy life… and never be to busy worrying on how life is go… just enjoy being alive. I have my initial session with my sports performance psychologist/coach Ashley this week, and hopefully she will help to get this clutter out of my head so that I can start getting the most out of every second!
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