PERFECTLY IMPERFECT

I was walking in to this strip mall store... when I walked in I realized it was a bank... and then as I was realizing where I was, I looked at the people's faces in the room... and they were terrified.  Then this man with dreads turn towards me and I realize he has a gun... my movement startles him and he just shoots.  He didn't aim he didn't say a word.  His eyes were filled with desperation and as fast as I heard the shot I felt warmth running down my neck.  I knew I was shot.  I held my throat and everything began to slow down.  I couldn't hear anything but my own breathing.  It was so loud... it slowed with each inhale.  I knew that if I passed out I may not wake up... so I started to accept my fate.  I knew that I was going to die.  I must have fallen to the floor by this time because as I try to keep breathing and keep my eyes open and fight the impending darkness that is taking over... I want to cry, but I can't.  I can't speak... I can't cry I can't move.  Then it's black... I wait and all of a sudden I feel like I'm in a vaccum and BAM!  My eyes open.  I'm awake... it was a dream.

I looked up what this could mean and I found out that it symbolizes disconnection from head and heart.  The gun shot signifies struggle with emotions... haha it's so right on!  I've been dealing with some TOTALLY un-needed drama with school... ART class of all things.  I can't believe that the class that was supposed to save me, was apart of the plan to tear me down.  OKay, there wasn't a plan, but I just never expected it.  It's such a long story I don't want to go in to it, but what I do want to say is that I am glad that it's over and I am MORE than ready to move forward with my life and it's completely soured my passion for studio art! HA

In other news, I have been having the greatest time watching the videos on the Food Network website!  It's like re-living the whole expirience with highlights on the fun parts:)  If you haven't seen the site recently check it out!  They have audition tapes up!  Lala steals the show!  I can't believe it was only a ear ago she was that little!  Gabe was only 6 months!  Wow, times flies.  Here's the site link!
http://www.foodnetwork.com/worst-cooks-in-america/index.html

I'm excited to tell you, that tomorrow I will be staging at FRUITION in down town Denver on Monday.  If you don't know what staging means, it's when you work with chef or restaurant to learn new techniques and cuisine.  FRUITION is owned by chef Alex Seidel and he is a young guy who really has it put together.  I loved his attitude, he's not about fame or fortuen, he's just about the food.  He was completely open to give me the opportunity to learn, as long as I was willing to step up and take it!  So, I am!  I will have my first day of staging on Monday!  With hopefully more days to come!

Working out with Jamie Atlas has been going well, he's such sincerely genuine person.  I am so thankful that I met him.  My friend Nichol has come with me this last week, and it was fun!  I had fun seeing where I was in comparison to another person that I wasn't intimidated by.  Nichol is really nice and was a great support! So, I just have to keep on the ball, cause Jan 3rd is coming up quick! 

OMG! Gabe just took off his diaper and it's full of POOPOOOO! Time to start potty training! lol  Back to being a Mom!

Thanks for reading:)
Sophia